Drawing days

Saturday, September 12, 2009 , 11:39 AM

Hello people. I want to blame something or someone for my not-posting-recently-and-I'm-so-sorry thing. And the perfect number one excuse is... MY DAD. I don't know but he's getting really really really irritating telling me to do my HOMEWORK and MATHS ASSESSMENTS.

-Start of RANT-

I thought he understood that I was slow at Maths and that there's a difference between doing a Maths assessment book and a Maths Test. Especially because of the time limit and exam pressure, am I not right? But he suddenly scolded me the other day, telling me 'Why is it that when I see your assessment (books) ah then see your exam marks, they tell me different thing? There must be a problem with you lah.' Is he accusing me of copying the answers from the back of the assessment books? It was like he has two faces. WHAT A SPLIT PERSONALITY! A few days ago he was telling me that 'I don't need to worry about what mistakes you did you know, it's more of whether you can finish the paper or not. That's why I tell you to practice so that ah you can score well.'

Pardon me for showing the world my father's Singlish ways. I am very annoyed at his behaviour. I understand that he was trying to put himself in my shoes and understand the problem. But apparently the shoe size doesn't fit! Because he simply doesn't think the way that I do or he still selfishly puts it in his point of view or BOTH!

And because I think differently, he treats me like a mental patient, giving me mini projects, showing me articles and videos emphasising on STUDYING and the importance of secondary school learning. All I just said that was that he should be proud at least by the fact that I improved and encourage me! But he misunderstood. What can I do?

I tried to understand why he's being like that. And tolerated him. But his presence in the house makes me feel very uneasy. Like I'm being spied on all the time. Which is why I don't feel at home. It's frightening that I actually feel that way. And no, I am not using my blog to put down my father, I am just complaining.

-Turning into girly girl's dreamy fashion-

Anyway, I was at the Botanic Gardens on Tuesday doing my Geography project/homework. There's actually a food court and library there! And I was copying some stuff from the books into my foolscap, scribbling all the way and realised I could write in italics! YAY. Not everyone can do that. Plus I was writing in my 'fantasy' handwriting. It makes me so happy.

Another big secret. Haha. I really feel like debating, you know. Especially after I saw much injustice done at the Asiasoft forums. But with so little time and my dad's watchful eye, I don't think I can spend much time on the computer even if I was not playing games like MapleStory(I'm making use of my printer's unwillingness to cooperate with me to print a Maths worksheet to blog).

-Revert to original self-

So I was thinking of what I could be when I grow up. I used to think of fashion designers, celebrities, singers and blah blah. But dump all that. I am now considering being an artist(much to my father's displeasure, but I do enjoy rebelling against him for all the time telling me not to be an artist even though I was not planning to), a lawyer(which my father will approve, not that I wish to be my father's dream daughter, but I do enjoy debating even though they make lawyers appear to be inhuman), a teacher or a writer. It's shocking that I actually consider being a writer, because firstly, I have little creativity with story writing and secondly, I have little or no inspiration. I already have problems being a 'artist-in-training' for being a member of the Art&Design club, with no idea what to submit for my comic competition with ArtGerm as a judge.

ARTGERM is the DESIGNER who DREW THE CHARACTERS FOR DOTA! WORLDCRAFT! GOD!! (http://artgerm.deviantart.com)

And the teacher in charge of helping the A&D members with the comic competition, MR TAN, is a comic artist! Not that I didn't know(I saw his pictures on the newspapers but didn't read), but I didn't know that he was that successful to publish SO MANY books. He even has a website! (http://www.tkgcc.com)

And why I considered being a writer is because I like to think and daydream. Especially about Artemis Fowl. I'm actually developing a story in my head. But that's not novel and it'll be called FANFICTION.

It'll be more probable being a teacher since I've been thinking about it since erm, kindergarten? And lawyers. Everyone hates lawyers(not really). Actually I don't like the idea of studying laws with books so thick. And wearing those weird costumes in court. Also, some lawyers are doing much injustice in the world, defending those in the wrong. Just because it's their client. I rather choose who and what I want to defend and debate whatever is wrong or right, blah blah.

Seriously. I'll start to talk like a saint when I talk about human rights, love, whatever is "touchy-feely".To think I can actually start to shed a few tears just by reading the introductory chapter of Tuesdays with Morrie.

And even more seriously, my mind likes to churn up alot of blabber recently. (Or maybe since long ago.) So if you don't mind, thank you for READING!

-End of insanity-